Listen to yourself and find out if you have replaced the Old victim mentality by a new more subtle form of victimhood one in which you have become victim of the Ascension process, the ascension symptoms, the hardness of the spiritual path or any other new story that keeps you in the old drama mode except that now, it is more subtle, more refined, more “spiritualized”.
Remember, the ego is “growing” with you and is picking up all your language, your nuances and is using all that you are learning to keep you UNCONSCIOUS, in “eyes-wide-shut” mode, even if you go and spin your chakras in a yoga class and you recite your favorite mantra, you could be wide asleep and in victim mode.
Beginners mind will always serve you well.

Barbara Meneses